Today I had the privilege of leading mid-week prayers at the Big Kirk. This was the first time I'd lead any act of worship here nor have I lead this style before.
But there's a first time for everything. It was great that the minister asked me (well, she actually asked Spot and I, but he had his turn last week!). There are several people in the congregation who have a wee bit of worship experience and she's never heard me 'in action.'
Undaunted by the size of the space, combined with the historical significance of the place, I got on with the task in hand. Turning up, as is my want way too early, it gave me a chance to settle the nerves (or, perhaps not), place my notes on the lectern and get mic'd up. Having no pockets and the belt clip being very tight, this was a 2 person operation, but we got it sorted.
As the appointed time arrived, I let the assembled masses (crowd, no handful of people) know there was a small act of worship about to start. As the clock chimed, I looked up and 2 people had joined me (at least I wasn't talking to myself, and where 2 or more are gathered etc). Swallowing hard, I introduced myself and began the service.
I think it went well. I'm sure word will (or won't) get around. I know I was nervous, but hope that wasn't picked up. My voice did get louder and louder to compete with the ladies in the shop - really, can you not talk for 10 minutes? It's a good PA system, though. Just as well, for a space that big!
It's great to be asked (and trusted) to do these sort of things. I've said it before and I will say it again - the more experience I can get the better.
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Wednesday, 16 October 2013
Tuesday, 30 July 2013
Not making stuff up
On Sunday I preached my ninth sermon in a row. At this stage in my training, it has been a great opportunity to get into the habit and discipline of preparing worship every week. It's also been good to do so without a supervisor 'looking over my shoulder,' so to speak. I know they are there to encourage and stretch and challenge us, but it's still nice to not have that pressure as I make preparations for Sunday and lead the act of worship.
Throughout this summer, I have tried to vary a little how I present/expound the bible passage(s). That has been both a conscious and non-conscious effort - on a couple of occasions it is only with hindsight I have realised I'd been a little different.
Now, I am not talking 'out there' different, but using different styles of sermons. Sometimes I have started with an anecdote, other times a story. Sometimes I have gone straight to the text and just teased out what it was and is saying to us. Sometimes I have begun by talking directly about the text, had an an anecdote or story in the middle and finished by going back to the text. On Sunday past I did something different from any of those.
The readings were Genesis 18:20-32 and Luke 11:1-13. This time I told a story from the prospective of the woman in the house of the man in the parable in Luke's gospel. Using that, I realised I was able to talk about culture and context - because they were integral parts of the story. I was able to bring in an explanation about seek, ask and knock, in relation to persistence. And I was able to relate the parable with Abraham's negotiation as part of the persistence. Looking back, there was a lot more teaching and theology in that story than I even realised when I was preparing the sermon.
The thing is, if I am at church and the sermon takes that style it's not exactly what you could call my preference. I've always wondered what the point is or why the minister didn't say things directly. But now I am coming to appreciate there is more than one way to cook an egg. Jesus regularly explained things in stories, so there's definitely a precedent there! Also, I am thinking of a congregation.
In any congregation, there will be a variety of learning types, background, experiences, knowledge, etc. Varying the style of sermon (even subtly) may touch different people in different ways. Though the sermon style I used on Sunday may not be one which speaks to me (if I am a bum on a pew), it does to others. How do I know it speaks to others? Because a couple of people spoke to me after the service and mentioned how it really made the lessons come alive for them. Yes, it might not work for all and I wouldn't do it often, but I will try again.
Besides, on a practical note, if I used the same style and format of sermon for my whole ministry I think I would get bored. Never mind the congregation!
Maybe, once I am back in civilisation and I hear a sermon in the style I preached the other day I will come to it with a fresh understanding, with fresh insight and the knowledge that it isn't just making stuff up, as I have thought of them in the past!
Throughout this summer, I have tried to vary a little how I present/expound the bible passage(s). That has been both a conscious and non-conscious effort - on a couple of occasions it is only with hindsight I have realised I'd been a little different.
Now, I am not talking 'out there' different, but using different styles of sermons. Sometimes I have started with an anecdote, other times a story. Sometimes I have gone straight to the text and just teased out what it was and is saying to us. Sometimes I have begun by talking directly about the text, had an an anecdote or story in the middle and finished by going back to the text. On Sunday past I did something different from any of those.
The readings were Genesis 18:20-32 and Luke 11:1-13. This time I told a story from the prospective of the woman in the house of the man in the parable in Luke's gospel. Using that, I realised I was able to talk about culture and context - because they were integral parts of the story. I was able to bring in an explanation about seek, ask and knock, in relation to persistence. And I was able to relate the parable with Abraham's negotiation as part of the persistence. Looking back, there was a lot more teaching and theology in that story than I even realised when I was preparing the sermon.
The thing is, if I am at church and the sermon takes that style it's not exactly what you could call my preference. I've always wondered what the point is or why the minister didn't say things directly. But now I am coming to appreciate there is more than one way to cook an egg. Jesus regularly explained things in stories, so there's definitely a precedent there! Also, I am thinking of a congregation.
In any congregation, there will be a variety of learning types, background, experiences, knowledge, etc. Varying the style of sermon (even subtly) may touch different people in different ways. Though the sermon style I used on Sunday may not be one which speaks to me (if I am a bum on a pew), it does to others. How do I know it speaks to others? Because a couple of people spoke to me after the service and mentioned how it really made the lessons come alive for them. Yes, it might not work for all and I wouldn't do it often, but I will try again.
Besides, on a practical note, if I used the same style and format of sermon for my whole ministry I think I would get bored. Never mind the congregation!
Maybe, once I am back in civilisation and I hear a sermon in the style I preached the other day I will come to it with a fresh understanding, with fresh insight and the knowledge that it isn't just making stuff up, as I have thought of them in the past!
Tuesday, 23 July 2013
Doing things differently
Sunday was a funny day. Firstly, I was leading worship somewhere I had not even been to before. Then, the pressure of a friend and peer being in the congregation (who had not previously heard me preach). Add to that a church building where the pulpit is in a corner, with the congregation in the 'arms' of the church (and one of the 3 balconies!). I think I may have thrown the congregation somewhat.
It started with me asking the Session Clerk, who'd already told me they would led me into the church, if it was them doing the welcome and intimations. This resulted in a startled look and a reply of "the minister usually does them." Taking a deep breath, and being as diplomatic as possible, I explained I didn't feel it was appropriate for me, as a guest and visitor, to welcome the congregation. And I wouldn't know what intimations needed to be announced/emphasised, against those which are there to be read. This resulted in someone else in the congregation leading me in. I'm glad I asked, or I would have walked in at the back of the Session Clerk and sat down in expectation!
Then, I did not use the pulpit for most of the service, only heading there for the sermon. I genuinely cannot remember a time when I have seen a minister take the whole service ('normal, bog-standard' Sunday service) in its entirety from the pulpit. I think that caused a bit of confusion, but it is the 'norm' most places and no one thought to advise me that was the custom and practise there!
Other than that, everything seemed to go reasonably smoothly. As usual, especially in an unfamiliar place, I managed to give off a calm, relaxed persona. The person who did the welcome etc even commented before we went in on it. Oh, if only he knew! I even, when delivering the sermon, manage to talk around the church, which, given its layout, really is no mean feat.
The congregation, generally, seemed pleased. I suspect, like many churches, some prefer their 'own' minister. My friend's children told me I have a praying voice. Oh dear, no ones pointed that out before. Must try harder to sound like me - but still have decent pace and diction and tone etc. I did tell them nerves don't help and I go into very formal when they really kick in.
So, a new and different experience for all concerned. All good and useful. It does also remind me of how much I don't know, but as a friend used to say "wisest is she who knows what she does not know." I'm just pleased God's got my back, 'cause I definitely couldn't do this without him.
It started with me asking the Session Clerk, who'd already told me they would led me into the church, if it was them doing the welcome and intimations. This resulted in a startled look and a reply of "the minister usually does them." Taking a deep breath, and being as diplomatic as possible, I explained I didn't feel it was appropriate for me, as a guest and visitor, to welcome the congregation. And I wouldn't know what intimations needed to be announced/emphasised, against those which are there to be read. This resulted in someone else in the congregation leading me in. I'm glad I asked, or I would have walked in at the back of the Session Clerk and sat down in expectation!
Then, I did not use the pulpit for most of the service, only heading there for the sermon. I genuinely cannot remember a time when I have seen a minister take the whole service ('normal, bog-standard' Sunday service) in its entirety from the pulpit. I think that caused a bit of confusion, but it is the 'norm' most places and no one thought to advise me that was the custom and practise there!
Other than that, everything seemed to go reasonably smoothly. As usual, especially in an unfamiliar place, I managed to give off a calm, relaxed persona. The person who did the welcome etc even commented before we went in on it. Oh, if only he knew! I even, when delivering the sermon, manage to talk around the church, which, given its layout, really is no mean feat.
The congregation, generally, seemed pleased. I suspect, like many churches, some prefer their 'own' minister. My friend's children told me I have a praying voice. Oh dear, no ones pointed that out before. Must try harder to sound like me - but still have decent pace and diction and tone etc. I did tell them nerves don't help and I go into very formal when they really kick in.
So, a new and different experience for all concerned. All good and useful. It does also remind me of how much I don't know, but as a friend used to say "wisest is she who knows what she does not know." I'm just pleased God's got my back, 'cause I definitely couldn't do this without him.
Wednesday, 19 June 2013
Will I come back?
They seem to like me up here. Really like me. On Sunday there, I led the whole act of worship for the first time at both congregations. So, that was the third Sunday and second time I've preached.
But how did I feel about it. It went better than I expected. It's strange preaching to a congregation I barely know. The first time it was especially strange, as I was preaching into the abyss in some ways. That went down well, and I'm sure things will be better as I get to know the people here; their hopes, fears, prejudices etc they have.
I know I'm already breaking with convention. When the offering was brought forward I received it. That was something which I picked up from Highland Cathedral and both the person bringing the plate forward and the congregation liked it. I also moved the 'minister's throne' and sat on an ordinary chair. I've only wee legs and mine were dangling off the throne. Given that's behind the communion table, I doubt anyone really noticed. And I did ask the Session Clerk if it was okay first!
The children were a little quiet, but they've not really encountered me before. I did, again, move a chair so I could speak to them. There's not really room for them to come forward, but they all sit together. The next Sunday I do a children's address I'll have a chair waiting for me.
I even, unintentionally, got a laugh from the congregations. What I was saying was intended, but I didn't expect a laugh - it's not that it didn't warrant a laugh, just it wasn't a joke (if that makes sense?). I know there was one or two points where I stumbled a little, but suspect hardly anyone would have noticed.
After the service I waited at the door - during the previous 2 weeks I've had to leg it from Railway Crossing to First Stop, so didn't have time for that. It was a beautiful day. Comments were favourable, including 'will you come back when you're finished?', 'very good' and 'food for thought'. I must admit to preferring the last comment. Though I am not, usually, a fire and brimstone kinda gal, I do try to get people thinking.
As for the 'will you come back'. It's a great complement, but I really don't feel called here. The people are lovely, the scenery and wildlife outstanding, but something just isn't quite right. I also told them I'd hope they managed to call a minister before I was finished, as it would be nearly 2 and a half years until I am finished training. That time line, along with the time they have been vacant so far would mean they'd have been vacant over 5 years. And, on a selfish note, I'm not sure what spot would do here - both in terms of his calling and for work.
It is good to be here and get alongside the people here for a while. It's also taking the pressure off the axillary minister who, in everyone's opinion, does far too much. All good experience for both sides of the equation. After all, apparently some in the congregation are now beginning to say they prefer a woman in the pulpit!
But how did I feel about it. It went better than I expected. It's strange preaching to a congregation I barely know. The first time it was especially strange, as I was preaching into the abyss in some ways. That went down well, and I'm sure things will be better as I get to know the people here; their hopes, fears, prejudices etc they have.
I know I'm already breaking with convention. When the offering was brought forward I received it. That was something which I picked up from Highland Cathedral and both the person bringing the plate forward and the congregation liked it. I also moved the 'minister's throne' and sat on an ordinary chair. I've only wee legs and mine were dangling off the throne. Given that's behind the communion table, I doubt anyone really noticed. And I did ask the Session Clerk if it was okay first!
The children were a little quiet, but they've not really encountered me before. I did, again, move a chair so I could speak to them. There's not really room for them to come forward, but they all sit together. The next Sunday I do a children's address I'll have a chair waiting for me.
I even, unintentionally, got a laugh from the congregations. What I was saying was intended, but I didn't expect a laugh - it's not that it didn't warrant a laugh, just it wasn't a joke (if that makes sense?). I know there was one or two points where I stumbled a little, but suspect hardly anyone would have noticed.
After the service I waited at the door - during the previous 2 weeks I've had to leg it from Railway Crossing to First Stop, so didn't have time for that. It was a beautiful day. Comments were favourable, including 'will you come back when you're finished?', 'very good' and 'food for thought'. I must admit to preferring the last comment. Though I am not, usually, a fire and brimstone kinda gal, I do try to get people thinking.
As for the 'will you come back'. It's a great complement, but I really don't feel called here. The people are lovely, the scenery and wildlife outstanding, but something just isn't quite right. I also told them I'd hope they managed to call a minister before I was finished, as it would be nearly 2 and a half years until I am finished training. That time line, along with the time they have been vacant so far would mean they'd have been vacant over 5 years. And, on a selfish note, I'm not sure what spot would do here - both in terms of his calling and for work.
It is good to be here and get alongside the people here for a while. It's also taking the pressure off the axillary minister who, in everyone's opinion, does far too much. All good experience for both sides of the equation. After all, apparently some in the congregation are now beginning to say they prefer a woman in the pulpit!
Tuesday, 13 November 2012
Getting other people involved
Recently, I have been reflecting on congregational involvement in worship. I have experienced it in all of my placements, with each church managing this in varying ways. I think its a great thing, as I don't like the idea of having to do the whole service, even if it is I just avoid the notices and the readings. It gives me a break, gives a indication of the priesthood of all believers in the involvement and allows congregation members to use the gifts they have for leading others in worship. Though called to ministry of word and sacrament, there is part of me thinks it would be great to work my way out of a job!
As part of my reflection, I have been wondering how to manage this involvement. As part of the leadership role I see myself going into as a minister, I see my role in encouraging, enabling and supporting members of the congregation to be involved in worship. There's a fine line in letting them try, yet still being there to help where necessary. Setting it up if it weren't there would take time and effort in the short term, but would (she says hopefully) play dividends in the long term.
If I were to get to the point I did not have 'up-front' involvement in worship every week, I would see my role as one of oversight. Being there to ensure there's continuity to worship, it flows and to offer support before and after the service. Without that oversight people may feel unsupported or they could get away with almost anything without accountability. While we are all accountable to God, the person or people leading worship are accountable to the congregation. Something needs to be in place to give that in an appropriate way.
It's a strange one. I hope I can encourage congregational involvement in worship wherever I go in a way which is best for the individuals and the community as a whole. We all have gifts to bring to God and it isn't just the ordained and set apart who have them.
As part of my reflection, I have been wondering how to manage this involvement. As part of the leadership role I see myself going into as a minister, I see my role in encouraging, enabling and supporting members of the congregation to be involved in worship. There's a fine line in letting them try, yet still being there to help where necessary. Setting it up if it weren't there would take time and effort in the short term, but would (she says hopefully) play dividends in the long term.
If I were to get to the point I did not have 'up-front' involvement in worship every week, I would see my role as one of oversight. Being there to ensure there's continuity to worship, it flows and to offer support before and after the service. Without that oversight people may feel unsupported or they could get away with almost anything without accountability. While we are all accountable to God, the person or people leading worship are accountable to the congregation. Something needs to be in place to give that in an appropriate way.
It's a strange one. I hope I can encourage congregational involvement in worship wherever I go in a way which is best for the individuals and the community as a whole. We all have gifts to bring to God and it isn't just the ordained and set apart who have them.
Tuesday, 23 October 2012
Worship Fix
I probably shouldn't say this, but I'm going to anyway. Sometimes, when I'm leading worship I don't actually feel especially worshipful. Okay, it's out now, so I'll explain.
Fortunately, during my second period of co-ordinated field, I did feel I was worshipping as well as leading others in worship. I had also experienced that doing pulpit supply in a couple of locations. So I know it is possible to do both. I very much doubt I could be an effective minister wherever I will serve if I had to get my worship 'fix' elsewhere. That would be just so draining and, I'd imagine, could led to disillusionment and/or burn out. Not good.
During my first placement I found it difficult to be worshipful at times. That arose from a whole load of issues, including knowing I'm being assessed, waiting to be criticised (sometimes, in hindsight, unfairly) and the general style of worship not really being what fitted me. But I didn't seek worship elsewhere, though did appreciate the weekly communion at New College.
During my summer placement, that all changed. The church 'fitted' me. It's not that I wasn't being assessed, but I knew it would be fair and supportive, from congregation and minister alike. There were things they did I hadn't experienced in a 'standard' Sunday service, such as singing a reflective hymn seated, immediately followed by a period of silence (for about 2 minutes). Or shaking hands with the congregation at the start (I never really became comfortable with that, but I could see the merit in it). But there I felt God's presence; was very aware that everything I was doing in worship was me worshipping God and, in doing so, leading others to worship. This summer, there really was nowhere else I would rather have been,
Now, at Caledonia Kirk, I feel the least worshipful I have ever felt. After preaching yesterday, I felt emotionally and physically drained in ways I have never experienced. I suppose its not helped by not being to come to God in the prayers (as they are either so brief they are over before they have begun or feel more like rambling monologues on the prayer leader's pet topic, so it stops being inclusive) or the songs (they don't like me calling them hymns) as not only do I not know them, but I struggle to sing with any sincerity, as I disagree with some of the theology of some. At Eagleside, it was often the hymns which got me to the worship place I needed to be in.
So, what do I do? Well, there's always listening to UCB (which even 6 months ago I would have dismissed out of hand), but that does not really cut it for me, as I feel worship needs to be communal activity. So, I'm seeking out churches near Caledonia Kirk with an earlier morning service, where there is time to get to 'wrok' in time. Though I was tired after preaching yesterday, I dread to think how drained I would have been if not for my worship fit earlier that morning.
And, at the other church in the city, I was asked on the way out if I sang in a choir. And that church has a very good choir. No, I won't be joining, as I'm just a wee bot busy at the mo!
Fortunately, during my second period of co-ordinated field, I did feel I was worshipping as well as leading others in worship. I had also experienced that doing pulpit supply in a couple of locations. So I know it is possible to do both. I very much doubt I could be an effective minister wherever I will serve if I had to get my worship 'fix' elsewhere. That would be just so draining and, I'd imagine, could led to disillusionment and/or burn out. Not good.
During my first placement I found it difficult to be worshipful at times. That arose from a whole load of issues, including knowing I'm being assessed, waiting to be criticised (sometimes, in hindsight, unfairly) and the general style of worship not really being what fitted me. But I didn't seek worship elsewhere, though did appreciate the weekly communion at New College.
During my summer placement, that all changed. The church 'fitted' me. It's not that I wasn't being assessed, but I knew it would be fair and supportive, from congregation and minister alike. There were things they did I hadn't experienced in a 'standard' Sunday service, such as singing a reflective hymn seated, immediately followed by a period of silence (for about 2 minutes). Or shaking hands with the congregation at the start (I never really became comfortable with that, but I could see the merit in it). But there I felt God's presence; was very aware that everything I was doing in worship was me worshipping God and, in doing so, leading others to worship. This summer, there really was nowhere else I would rather have been,
Now, at Caledonia Kirk, I feel the least worshipful I have ever felt. After preaching yesterday, I felt emotionally and physically drained in ways I have never experienced. I suppose its not helped by not being to come to God in the prayers (as they are either so brief they are over before they have begun or feel more like rambling monologues on the prayer leader's pet topic, so it stops being inclusive) or the songs (they don't like me calling them hymns) as not only do I not know them, but I struggle to sing with any sincerity, as I disagree with some of the theology of some. At Eagleside, it was often the hymns which got me to the worship place I needed to be in.
So, what do I do? Well, there's always listening to UCB (which even 6 months ago I would have dismissed out of hand), but that does not really cut it for me, as I feel worship needs to be communal activity. So, I'm seeking out churches near Caledonia Kirk with an earlier morning service, where there is time to get to 'wrok' in time. Though I was tired after preaching yesterday, I dread to think how drained I would have been if not for my worship fit earlier that morning.
And, at the other church in the city, I was asked on the way out if I sang in a choir. And that church has a very good choir. No, I won't be joining, as I'm just a wee bot busy at the mo!
Monday, 6 August 2012
First and last
I lead the whole act of worship yesterday for the first and last time at Highland Cathedral. Generally, it went well, flowed and came together as a coherent unit.
Being the first time here I was really nervous, but tried to use that to my advantage, rather than let it use me. That paid off to a certain extent, though as I was preaching I did stumble over a couple of words. I know I did that a bit more than I usually do (it's not like me at all), but it was a bit like a tickly cough - annoying and the more I tried to deal with it, the more it happened. Just need to remember, if that happens, to take a deep breath, pause for a second and move on. I know from feedback from my supervisor he felt that most of the congregation would not have picked up on it, which is good as I would hate that it distracted from them hearing God's message, but I know I need to remain conscious that I try to get it right. Again, I know that will come with experience.
The preamble for the sermon was a little long. A member of the congregation mentioned that to me (as the one thing wrong - they thought everything else was spot on) and I felt that was very fair comment. Again, I know that was in part down to lack of experience. With more experience I would have had the confidence to cut part of my preamble, but didn't yesterday. Again, something to bear in mind when I preach.
did use some 'Mrs Gerbilisms' - one was from my native region and another was mine. I sometimes combine two words or make up new ones, especially when nervous. The disturbing thing is, people still understand me! My supervisor just advised me that might be a problem if I went to a posh congregation in Edinburgh or Glasgow. I don't see that being a problem as I really do not feel called to either of those cities (I should be careful what I say - God may have other plans).
The children's address didn't go as I'd planned. No children were prepared to help me (which wasn't just me - they don't really do anything for my supervisor either, though they don't know me as well as they know him and I am aware that also has an impact). Because no children helped I was going to move on, but someone from the congregation, without prompting from me, got up to help. I took that all in my stride and adapted the activity to what had happened. The message still came across and the children (and congregation) seemed to enjoy it. I know it's good I was able to adapt well and cope with the changes. So, looks like children's addresses, which were my nemesis at my last placement, are now coming together well.
But all of this is being pedantic. It looks like I have a natural gift for leading worship, which is a wee bit handy for a ministry candidate! That said, I hope I never become complacent and begin to rely on my own skills and forget I must always rely on God and the gifts he has given me. I know the nerves I get before worship help to focus my mind and also remind me how important what I am about to do is.
Being the first time here I was really nervous, but tried to use that to my advantage, rather than let it use me. That paid off to a certain extent, though as I was preaching I did stumble over a couple of words. I know I did that a bit more than I usually do (it's not like me at all), but it was a bit like a tickly cough - annoying and the more I tried to deal with it, the more it happened. Just need to remember, if that happens, to take a deep breath, pause for a second and move on. I know from feedback from my supervisor he felt that most of the congregation would not have picked up on it, which is good as I would hate that it distracted from them hearing God's message, but I know I need to remain conscious that I try to get it right. Again, I know that will come with experience.
The preamble for the sermon was a little long. A member of the congregation mentioned that to me (as the one thing wrong - they thought everything else was spot on) and I felt that was very fair comment. Again, I know that was in part down to lack of experience. With more experience I would have had the confidence to cut part of my preamble, but didn't yesterday. Again, something to bear in mind when I preach.
did use some 'Mrs Gerbilisms' - one was from my native region and another was mine. I sometimes combine two words or make up new ones, especially when nervous. The disturbing thing is, people still understand me! My supervisor just advised me that might be a problem if I went to a posh congregation in Edinburgh or Glasgow. I don't see that being a problem as I really do not feel called to either of those cities (I should be careful what I say - God may have other plans).
The children's address didn't go as I'd planned. No children were prepared to help me (which wasn't just me - they don't really do anything for my supervisor either, though they don't know me as well as they know him and I am aware that also has an impact). Because no children helped I was going to move on, but someone from the congregation, without prompting from me, got up to help. I took that all in my stride and adapted the activity to what had happened. The message still came across and the children (and congregation) seemed to enjoy it. I know it's good I was able to adapt well and cope with the changes. So, looks like children's addresses, which were my nemesis at my last placement, are now coming together well.
But all of this is being pedantic. It looks like I have a natural gift for leading worship, which is a wee bit handy for a ministry candidate! That said, I hope I never become complacent and begin to rely on my own skills and forget I must always rely on God and the gifts he has given me. I know the nerves I get before worship help to focus my mind and also remind me how important what I am about to do is.
Tuesday, 27 March 2012
One more step
I led the last of the full services I am to lead during this placement yesterday. And I think it went well (I even spotted someone who usually never sings joining in for one of the hymns!). Feedback was very encouraging, though (and this is going to sound negative), it would be good if there were people who would criticise it. I'm sure I'll get that feedback in due course and need to focus on the positives, as I tend to sometimes get bogged down in the negatives, resulting in a focus on them so the good things maybe don't get built up.
The children's address seemed to go well. I am definitely building up a relationship with the children, though some are still quite shy. I feel I brought the theme broadly onto their level – it was about God's new covenant so I talked about promises. I think I could have done with talking a little about promises changing, but I don't want to bore the children. One child did go a bit off topic, but that's fine – I've no fixed notions of where the address should go, just roughly a start and finish, what happens in between depends as much on where the children take it. Didn't get much feedback for this. One person told me “you shouldn't let the children speak”. Another complemented me on how I am able to relate to the children, they seem comfortable talking to me and I seem to speak on their level. I must admit I pretty much disregarded the former comment.
The service was a smidge more traditional than usual. That was a combination of hymns (where I did slip a couple of my favourites in, but what's the point of being a minister if you can't choose the hymns you like occasionally? Now I will remove my tongue from my cheek.), me power dressing, no powerpoint (except the hymns) and a prayer of confession (usually there's just opening and intercession prayers). I think if services are more 'modern', it's useful to occasionally have a traditional service. It's a change from the norm, apart from anything.
The sermon went generally well. I think I may have seemed to be slightly repeating myself and I'm undecided if that would be seen as emphasis or me not really knowing what I was saying. I also was a bit challenging, but I hope, encouraging too. I'm not sure if I had that much tonal variation in my voice. It's hard to tell, as I hear more than others may do. I was consciously trying to do this, so I hope I managed.
Overall, good. Definitely room for improvement, but if I stop improving and become complacent (at any stage in ministry), I think it would be time to re-examine what I am doing.
The children's address seemed to go well. I am definitely building up a relationship with the children, though some are still quite shy. I feel I brought the theme broadly onto their level – it was about God's new covenant so I talked about promises. I think I could have done with talking a little about promises changing, but I don't want to bore the children. One child did go a bit off topic, but that's fine – I've no fixed notions of where the address should go, just roughly a start and finish, what happens in between depends as much on where the children take it. Didn't get much feedback for this. One person told me “you shouldn't let the children speak”. Another complemented me on how I am able to relate to the children, they seem comfortable talking to me and I seem to speak on their level. I must admit I pretty much disregarded the former comment.
The service was a smidge more traditional than usual. That was a combination of hymns (where I did slip a couple of my favourites in, but what's the point of being a minister if you can't choose the hymns you like occasionally? Now I will remove my tongue from my cheek.), me power dressing, no powerpoint (except the hymns) and a prayer of confession (usually there's just opening and intercession prayers). I think if services are more 'modern', it's useful to occasionally have a traditional service. It's a change from the norm, apart from anything.
The sermon went generally well. I think I may have seemed to be slightly repeating myself and I'm undecided if that would be seen as emphasis or me not really knowing what I was saying. I also was a bit challenging, but I hope, encouraging too. I'm not sure if I had that much tonal variation in my voice. It's hard to tell, as I hear more than others may do. I was consciously trying to do this, so I hope I managed.
Overall, good. Definitely room for improvement, but if I stop improving and become complacent (at any stage in ministry), I think it would be time to re-examine what I am doing.
Tuesday, 31 January 2012
Getting watched
I led the whole service at Eagleside on Sunday. This is the second time I have done so there, but this time I was really being watched. There was the speech trainer from 121, spotthegerbil and my Mum. Most people thought I'd be especially worried about the speech trainer. Nah, much more pressure Mum being there.
But anyway, this is my professional reflection on the service, so lets concentrate on that.
My theme was a combination of the ordinary made extraordinary and everyone having a calling. Generally, even I couldn't believe how well it went. I'm not perfect - far from it and still have so much to learn - but I'm definitely improving. And that's good. I'm training to learn my style, find my feet and improve - if none of that happens, then I am doing something very wrong and would not be engaging with the process. I've also now listened to the service, which is a useful and disturbing thing! I probably pick up on much more than even the most critical ear would from listening to myself!
I engaged well with the children and, taking on board criticism I've had for my last service, tried to extend the teaching point more. I hope I got the balance right there, but I don't want to tell them so much that there's nothing for the Young Church to tell them. I also feel I dealt well with the children who were going away with the talk (and some of their insight was brilliant - out of the mouths of babes). It's good to know they are starting to feel comfortable with me, as I am with them.
My prayers were well delivered, but the speech trainer thought I had strange pauses. Not convinced I agree with him and, as the delivery is similar to that I have used before at Eagleside which was encouraged and affirmed, I might just agree to disagree on that point.
During the sermon, I generally had a good range of tone and pace, but not too much that people would loose me. I did have a couple of asides which, to be honest, were more me thinking out loud and may not have been picked up very well. Need to be very aware of that and try to engage brain with mouth, which can be easier said than done sometimes! Some of my intensional asides didn't get a flicker of recongition from most of the congregation, but then I do have a very particular sense of humour. They are used to humour in the service, but mine is much more dry than my supervisors. Won't be so bad once I've built up a relationship with a congregation.
I tend to have notes as a comfort and, especially on Sunday, I didn't refer to them too much. I still need practice at this as there was a point where I might have sounded like I got myself in a fankle, but took a deep breath, sip of water, glanced at my notes and moved on. At least having full notes for the prayers and sermon (yet not for the children's address - maybe there's something in that?) allows for that. It also gives my timings, as I know roughly how long I am going to talk.
Due to nerves, there were a couple of words I stumbled over. Funnily, I picked out different ones from the speech trainer. Generally, though, I was very clear with good diction.
The service did come together as a running theme, I feel. That is something I think it so important. As I've said many a time before, there's nothing worse than the children's address haveing nothing to do with the rest of the service. In those cases, I've tended to think it's like patting the children on the head before we get on with the real service!
All the hymns were quite long, which I hadn't really thought about when I chose them. May be worth keeping that in mind for future. That said, a member of the choir did thank me for choosing "such lovely hymns" fo them to sing. Glad to be of service!
Oh, and getting back to the sermon. I really couldn't believe what was going on. There I was, all passionate and animated at some points. Where did that come from? I remember thinking at the time. Of course, it's the holy spirit, but good grief, I never knew I had it in me! No, I didn't thump the pulpit! I'm not that way inclined!
So, overall, it went well. Still things to work on and be aware of. But I need those things so I never, ever get complacent.
And a closing word from a member of the congregation. "Sometimes I forget this is just the start of your training. You're very good. We're had probationers here who haven't been as good as that". Wow, looks like I have a gift. A wonderful gift from God. I pray I use it well.
But anyway, this is my professional reflection on the service, so lets concentrate on that.
My theme was a combination of the ordinary made extraordinary and everyone having a calling. Generally, even I couldn't believe how well it went. I'm not perfect - far from it and still have so much to learn - but I'm definitely improving. And that's good. I'm training to learn my style, find my feet and improve - if none of that happens, then I am doing something very wrong and would not be engaging with the process. I've also now listened to the service, which is a useful and disturbing thing! I probably pick up on much more than even the most critical ear would from listening to myself!
I engaged well with the children and, taking on board criticism I've had for my last service, tried to extend the teaching point more. I hope I got the balance right there, but I don't want to tell them so much that there's nothing for the Young Church to tell them. I also feel I dealt well with the children who were going away with the talk (and some of their insight was brilliant - out of the mouths of babes). It's good to know they are starting to feel comfortable with me, as I am with them.
My prayers were well delivered, but the speech trainer thought I had strange pauses. Not convinced I agree with him and, as the delivery is similar to that I have used before at Eagleside which was encouraged and affirmed, I might just agree to disagree on that point.
During the sermon, I generally had a good range of tone and pace, but not too much that people would loose me. I did have a couple of asides which, to be honest, were more me thinking out loud and may not have been picked up very well. Need to be very aware of that and try to engage brain with mouth, which can be easier said than done sometimes! Some of my intensional asides didn't get a flicker of recongition from most of the congregation, but then I do have a very particular sense of humour. They are used to humour in the service, but mine is much more dry than my supervisors. Won't be so bad once I've built up a relationship with a congregation.
I tend to have notes as a comfort and, especially on Sunday, I didn't refer to them too much. I still need practice at this as there was a point where I might have sounded like I got myself in a fankle, but took a deep breath, sip of water, glanced at my notes and moved on. At least having full notes for the prayers and sermon (yet not for the children's address - maybe there's something in that?) allows for that. It also gives my timings, as I know roughly how long I am going to talk.
Due to nerves, there were a couple of words I stumbled over. Funnily, I picked out different ones from the speech trainer. Generally, though, I was very clear with good diction.
The service did come together as a running theme, I feel. That is something I think it so important. As I've said many a time before, there's nothing worse than the children's address haveing nothing to do with the rest of the service. In those cases, I've tended to think it's like patting the children on the head before we get on with the real service!
All the hymns were quite long, which I hadn't really thought about when I chose them. May be worth keeping that in mind for future. That said, a member of the choir did thank me for choosing "such lovely hymns" fo them to sing. Glad to be of service!
Oh, and getting back to the sermon. I really couldn't believe what was going on. There I was, all passionate and animated at some points. Where did that come from? I remember thinking at the time. Of course, it's the holy spirit, but good grief, I never knew I had it in me! No, I didn't thump the pulpit! I'm not that way inclined!
So, overall, it went well. Still things to work on and be aware of. But I need those things so I never, ever get complacent.
And a closing word from a member of the congregation. "Sometimes I forget this is just the start of your training. You're very good. We're had probationers here who haven't been as good as that". Wow, looks like I have a gift. A wonderful gift from God. I pray I use it well.
Wednesday, 17 August 2011
It all came together
Spot and I were visiting friends at the weekend. Not that noteworthy, I know, but we were very aware it was one of the last weekends we'll have free for a while. Not that we're bothered. It's an occupational hazard for me (and potentially Spot). Also, even before beginning the process which has got me to this point, weekends were often committed to church-related things.
A couple of weeks earlier, they had been visiting her parents and were in the congregation as I led worship. At the weekend they were commenting how the service "was just so you". They found it amusing I pointed out it would be surprising all these people following Jesus around the lake and not taking their pieces with them (for viewers outwith Scotland, that's sandwiches). They also loved how the whole service fitted so well together. Cool, that's what I'm trying for, though I don't always know if others get that.
It is a major bugbear of mine when that doesn't seem to happen. I know sometimes my services have had a tenuous link, but there's some sort of theme I try to carry through the whole service. What I hate is the readings not appearing to relate to the childrens' address and neither of them relate to the sermon. (Sigh, glad I got that off my chest).
The feedback I get from services always seems to be positive. I know this night sound a little odd, but a wee but of negative feedback could be good. I might get a big head and that would not be good, though with friends and family like mine, it's probably not going to happen! Also, I wonder if it's because I'm the trainee minister and they know I'm just learning. It's great to think that's the case, but I'll never learn if no one tells me what I've done wrong or could do better.
Hopefully, that will all change come placement. I know I will have to adapt my style if I get my first choice. That's good. Knowing how to lead worship in different contexts and with different types of people will benefit me long term. Doing placements at churches like those I know will not achieve that and will not give me the good grounding I'll need once I get released on my own! A wee while yet, but it'll be quick enough coming.
A couple of weeks earlier, they had been visiting her parents and were in the congregation as I led worship. At the weekend they were commenting how the service "was just so you". They found it amusing I pointed out it would be surprising all these people following Jesus around the lake and not taking their pieces with them (for viewers outwith Scotland, that's sandwiches). They also loved how the whole service fitted so well together. Cool, that's what I'm trying for, though I don't always know if others get that.
It is a major bugbear of mine when that doesn't seem to happen. I know sometimes my services have had a tenuous link, but there's some sort of theme I try to carry through the whole service. What I hate is the readings not appearing to relate to the childrens' address and neither of them relate to the sermon. (Sigh, glad I got that off my chest).
The feedback I get from services always seems to be positive. I know this night sound a little odd, but a wee but of negative feedback could be good. I might get a big head and that would not be good, though with friends and family like mine, it's probably not going to happen! Also, I wonder if it's because I'm the trainee minister and they know I'm just learning. It's great to think that's the case, but I'll never learn if no one tells me what I've done wrong or could do better.
Hopefully, that will all change come placement. I know I will have to adapt my style if I get my first choice. That's good. Knowing how to lead worship in different contexts and with different types of people will benefit me long term. Doing placements at churches like those I know will not achieve that and will not give me the good grounding I'll need once I get released on my own! A wee while yet, but it'll be quick enough coming.
Sunday, 31 July 2011
My last one?
It's the end of my pulpit supply series I have been doing while there's been no service in my home church - I've been leading worship at my "other" home church. The church was quiet busy, with some from my own home church and friends of mine up visiting their parents (who are members of this church) with their 2 month old son (who slept through the whole service, so good to know I'm engaging!!!).
It was good to have some children today. They were quiet (they are like that, it wasn't just because I am unfamiliar), but did seem to be intently listening when I was speaking to them. Should remind myself not to knee down, though. Getting up in painful. Old age, it doesn't come itself!
The theme of the service was sharing based on the feeding of the 5000. The disciples had a little, but with Jesus blessing, the little they had fed everyone with leftovers. Pretty cool. While delivering the sermon, it occurred to me how that's happened (and still happening) with me. God has taken the little I have, blessed it and sent me to share it with the world. Pretty amazing.
Evey time I have lead worship, I have been very aware just how much what I am saying is speaking to me as much as anyone else. At least I feel I am worshiping, though I am becoming all too aware the opportunities to sit in the body of the kirk and "just be" during worship are fast diminishing. But this is what God calls me to and, as I has seen, has given me the gifts to fulfill.
At the end of the service, a few of the congregation mentioned how much they'd enjoyed the service. How they hadn't though of the feeding of the 5000 as an act of sharing, but maybe it was. There were some who wished me well for beginning my studies/training and said "auch, you'll do well". From Presbyterian Scot's that's a huge complement, though I see it as "nae pressure then".
As it was my last Sunday there for the foreseeable future, I was given some of the flowers which were in church. At home, this lead to the amusing search around the Gerbil Burrow trying to find a suitable receptacle for gladioli. Eventually, we put them here...
Well, they are waterproof and tall. When you don't own any vases (because you don't generally like dead plants), you have to be inventive where to put flowers. The last time it was in an old pickled onion jar. Yes, the Gerbil Burrow is classy!
It was good to have some children today. They were quiet (they are like that, it wasn't just because I am unfamiliar), but did seem to be intently listening when I was speaking to them. Should remind myself not to knee down, though. Getting up in painful. Old age, it doesn't come itself!
The theme of the service was sharing based on the feeding of the 5000. The disciples had a little, but with Jesus blessing, the little they had fed everyone with leftovers. Pretty cool. While delivering the sermon, it occurred to me how that's happened (and still happening) with me. God has taken the little I have, blessed it and sent me to share it with the world. Pretty amazing.
Evey time I have lead worship, I have been very aware just how much what I am saying is speaking to me as much as anyone else. At least I feel I am worshiping, though I am becoming all too aware the opportunities to sit in the body of the kirk and "just be" during worship are fast diminishing. But this is what God calls me to and, as I has seen, has given me the gifts to fulfill.
At the end of the service, a few of the congregation mentioned how much they'd enjoyed the service. How they hadn't though of the feeding of the 5000 as an act of sharing, but maybe it was. There were some who wished me well for beginning my studies/training and said "auch, you'll do well". From Presbyterian Scot's that's a huge complement, though I see it as "nae pressure then".
As it was my last Sunday there for the foreseeable future, I was given some of the flowers which were in church. At home, this lead to the amusing search around the Gerbil Burrow trying to find a suitable receptacle for gladioli. Eventually, we put them here...
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Monday, 18 July 2011
Something old, something new
Again, I was leading worship at my "other" home church yesterday. It's such a privilege to be asked back again. I do like leading worship there. It's not a bit congregation, but this isn't a numbers game. They are warm and friendly, with deep faith.
During the first talk (sort of children's address), I could feel my voice get all wobbly. I know it's because the words, although my own, had really struck home to me. And it wasn't helped with seeing my Mum (as I scanned the congregation) welling up. I don't know if it was pride or not, but a drink of water was needed so I could compose myself. Oh, the pressures. It's not helped with some thinking I am a "strong person" who doesn't let their emotions get the better of me, though no one commented on it, so maybe it was just obvious to me.
I also tried something new today, based on the thanksgiving and intersession prayer in the starters for Sunday for this week. Before I began, I explained I was giving something new a try and how the prayer would work. Well, it got a very favourable response. The feedback was it really allowed the congregation to focus on the various groups in the prayer. They really felt they were praying with me, rather than me leading them. Great to know and part of the reason I was confident to try something new, as I knew the congregation would give me constructive feedback, even if it hadn't gone well.
I don't think I'd lead a prayer like this all the time. But it's definitely a style to keep in mind and try once in a while.
During the first talk (sort of children's address), I could feel my voice get all wobbly. I know it's because the words, although my own, had really struck home to me. And it wasn't helped with seeing my Mum (as I scanned the congregation) welling up. I don't know if it was pride or not, but a drink of water was needed so I could compose myself. Oh, the pressures. It's not helped with some thinking I am a "strong person" who doesn't let their emotions get the better of me, though no one commented on it, so maybe it was just obvious to me.
I also tried something new today, based on the thanksgiving and intersession prayer in the starters for Sunday for this week. Before I began, I explained I was giving something new a try and how the prayer would work. Well, it got a very favourable response. The feedback was it really allowed the congregation to focus on the various groups in the prayer. They really felt they were praying with me, rather than me leading them. Great to know and part of the reason I was confident to try something new, as I knew the congregation would give me constructive feedback, even if it hadn't gone well.
I don't think I'd lead a prayer like this all the time. But it's definitely a style to keep in mind and try once in a while.
Sunday, 10 July 2011
Talking to farmers
I was leading worship in my (other) home church today, as cover for my ministers. It's a rural parish, so the majority of the congregation are farmers or have a deep knowledge of farming.
So I preached on the parable of the sower! I was aware of this when writing the sermon, as I was bearing that in mind, but I was brought up a townie, so there's always the chance I've really no idea what I am talking about.
Well, I must have been saying the right things, as I was getting emphatic nodding and not "what is she talking about" stares. After the service, they all thanked me sincerely. They really do like my preaching. Must be doing something right. I try to speak from the heart and as the spirit moves me. I must admit, I really do feel the spirit's guidance when preparing a service. When I lead worship, I never cease to be amazed just how well it's all come together.
I'm leading worship at that congregation another couple of times over the summer. I hope I can still met the high standards I have set for myself and expectations that congregation has of me. I'm sure, so long as I am saying God's message, that will be the case.
So I preached on the parable of the sower! I was aware of this when writing the sermon, as I was bearing that in mind, but I was brought up a townie, so there's always the chance I've really no idea what I am talking about.
Well, I must have been saying the right things, as I was getting emphatic nodding and not "what is she talking about" stares. After the service, they all thanked me sincerely. They really do like my preaching. Must be doing something right. I try to speak from the heart and as the spirit moves me. I must admit, I really do feel the spirit's guidance when preparing a service. When I lead worship, I never cease to be amazed just how well it's all come together.
I'm leading worship at that congregation another couple of times over the summer. I hope I can still met the high standards I have set for myself and expectations that congregation has of me. I'm sure, so long as I am saying God's message, that will be the case.
Sunday, 3 April 2011
Reflection on today's service
As I was away for a few days this week, I had prepared all of today's service bar the sermon before I went away. I had a rough idea for the sermon and had done most of my reading prior to my break.
It didn't really take me that long to write the sermon on Friday night, probably due to the leg work already done. Although I knew where I was starting, I was surprised where the sermon led me. It's amazing what the holy spirit will do.
Anyway, I hadn't looked again at other elements of the service - prayers, children's address and hymns - until today. I just couldn't believe who well it all tied in with the theme.
There are some in my home church who think I am really good at this and very impressed at how I bring it all together. I wonder if they realise there's probably no one more surprised than I am!
Prior to the service beginning at the second of my home churches, a member of the congregation said he hoped I would include, in the prayers of intercession, a prayer for Ronan Kerr a police officer killed by a bomb in Northern Ireland. I don't like doing this, as I immediately thought of the people killed in Afghanistan following the Koran burning, among other things. The prayers remanded unchanged, but there was a silence included which would have allowed this person to remember Ronan Kerr
There was an issue with the microphone at the second service this morning. There was a lot of static coming through, so I took off my jacket as that may have been causing it. No, that still didn't work, so I had to change to another mic. And all this was during the sermon. I knew I had to stop to deal with it as it was a really annoying noise. I was glad I don't have a hearing aid, as it must have been horrific for those who do. It was bad enough for those without.. Ne'er mind, these things happen. I must admit, underneath I was going "I don't need this, I don't need this", but outwardly I kept calm and carried on, but there was nothing else for it.
After the service, I received positive feedback for many in the congregation. They all appreciate being able to hear. I must admit, I have a voice which carries and it has got me into trouble in the past. Never thought it would come in handy, though. Also, I have very good hearing. but sometimes I can't hear my minister very well as they sometimes mumble or talk too quickly. There's no point delivering an amazing message if no one can hear.
One member of the congregation told me she loves the way I explain things so well. She also said "You know, we're all very proud of you, Mrs Gerbil?". This is so humbling, though I think I turned as red as the top I am now wearing and it takes a lot to embarrass me! Actually, I get embarrassed when praised or people try to make me the centre of attention. I try to avoid both!
Overall, the service seemed to go really well. I know I am only saying what God is guiding me to say. I pray those who heard the service will be guided by the holy spirit in the way God needs them to go.
Saturday, 26 March 2011
The winding path
This Sunday, I'm leading prayers at my home churches. This is the first time since Christmas that I have been involved leading worship. Prior to starting my distance learning courses, I was involved with leading worship on a regular basis. Between full-time work and course work, that wasn't really an option. Not if I wanted some sort of sanity.
Over the following couple of Sundays I'm doing pulpit supply while my ministers are on holiday. It's a great privilege to be asked to do this again. I'm pretty much asked to do the service (or parts) and allowed a free hand on what I say, how's it's presented etc. My ministers are happy to help if I need advice or guidance, but they don't check what I'm doing before hand (though I do get feedback after, which is great for the learning process). I know my ministers want to be supportive of me while I'm in limbo awaiting the beginning of my training, but I suspect they wouldn't give me as free a hand if they thought I sucked!
I know from comments I've heard directly and indirectly, my home churches appreciate my way of leading worship.In some ways, I suppose, they could be the most critical audience, as to some members of the congregation I am and always will be "Little Mrs Gerbil". The flip side to that is some have known me so long they don't want to offend me by criticising what I do in leading worship.
Something I am becoming more and more aware of, as I time inextricably ticks down to the beginning of my training, is how difficult I may find going back to square one. Starting doing the occasional prayer, children's address or sermon. Having, perhaps, my preparation examined before I lead worship, to ensure it is of a suitable standard and ties in with the service theme. Perhaps not being given a free hand to at least try things. Okay, they might not work - at all or in that context - but trying and making mistakes surely has to be part of the training process.
The other thing I am becoming increasingly aware of is how little time I have left with my home church. There are many things coming to an end. In particular, at the end of June, I am giving up leading at their youth club. That is something which will be very strange. I really enjoy being there and get on very well with the kids. Unfortunately, there's a chance with me gone there may no longer be sufficient leaders for it to continue, which makes me a bit guilty. Who knows, the placements I have may have youth clubs and I'd want to be involved with those.
I know I need to step away from my home church to grow and learn in a new environment. An environment where I will question as well as learn. I won't just take it for granted something is done in a particular way, but ask "Why?".
The path following my call has been a long one. At times, is hasn't been easy. At times, I've almost given up. It has also been an amazing, exciting walk with God. Leaving my home church will be sad, but what an adventure awaits me? Bring it on!
Sunday, 13 March 2011
No pressure, then!
In a couple of weeks I will be supplying pulpit supply for my home churches. Again, this is a great privilege and honour, especially as I am allowed a free hand. My minister is there for guidance, if necessary, but pretty much lets me get on with it. (Note to self - things will change on placement!).
Today, a member of the congregation mentioned me covering for my ministers. "Mrs Gerbil, I believe you are leading worship for us while our ministers are away. I'm very much looking forward to hearing you preach." This was very humbling, as this person was one of my Sunday School teachers and has a great knowledge of the bible (much, much better than I do).
I find it amazing how much people seem to enjoy my services. I know I have set my standards high, or should I say God has guided my high standards? I do know I definitely couldn't do this without the guidance of the Holy Spirit and the grounding I have had in faith from people such as the lady who spoke to me today. I just pray I don't let God down when I do lead worship and in the way I try to lead my life - through and with him.
Today, a member of the congregation mentioned me covering for my ministers. "Mrs Gerbil, I believe you are leading worship for us while our ministers are away. I'm very much looking forward to hearing you preach." This was very humbling, as this person was one of my Sunday School teachers and has a great knowledge of the bible (much, much better than I do).
I find it amazing how much people seem to enjoy my services. I know I have set my standards high, or should I say God has guided my high standards? I do know I definitely couldn't do this without the guidance of the Holy Spirit and the grounding I have had in faith from people such as the lady who spoke to me today. I just pray I don't let God down when I do lead worship and in the way I try to lead my life - through and with him.
Sunday, 24 October 2010
Only mentioned it once (or twice), think I got away with it!
The services I led today went very well. The feedback I received was very positive. I know many people are more likely to make positive comments than give negative ones, but some of the individuals from whom I received praise only do so when something is really worth praising. It was very humbling to think I could invoke such a reaction. The holy spirit moved through me today, that I am sure of.
Comments I received included:
This has reassured me to trust the holy spirit. It will give me the words God needs me to speak. Today I trusted and God spoke.
Comments I received included:
- Excellent service - truly excellent (vague I know, but to get that from this individual...I must have done something right!).
- I really enjoyed that.
- I love the way you cut to the chase and tell it like it is.
- Mrs Gerbil, that was excellent [referring to the sermon]. You said something that needed to be said. Thank you.
- Wonderful. Keep that service. The church which gets you will be blessed. (Humbling words indeed).
- That was a very good service. We old fuddy-duddies like how you manage to had a good balance of old and new.
- Your service was excellent. You also have a very good presentation voice. Your pronunciation is clear and you pace things just right. It's important people hear what you are saying and we heard every word. Thank you.
This has reassured me to trust the holy spirit. It will give me the words God needs me to speak. Today I trusted and God spoke.
Saturday, 4 September 2010
What to wear...
Over at Pilgrim's progress, Nik has been posting on what to wear as a minster. You can read the post here.
Generally, I think it's useful for the congregation, especially visitors, to see who the minister is. This is where the dog - sorry, clerical - collar comes in useful. I know, when I am a minister I will wear one for leading worship, certain types of visits where being instantly recognisable is advantageous and funerals.
It's a uniform. I recognise the assistant in Tesco by their uniform. I know if I want to know where to get the item that's been moved for the umpteenth time, I ask the person in the right clothing. I suppose the same goes for ministers!
As for robes...quite frankly, I'd get roasting in them. Generally, I don't feel very cold, unless it's really hot. So, robes would get me too hot under the collar! There are times, I know, where they set even more gravitas - such as when performing (or should that be administering?) the sacraments and remembrance Sunday. Having said that, if I was called to a very cold church, my opinion on robes may change very rapidly!!!
Preaching scarves...well they can be useful. A bit more formal than just the collar, but without the insulation of robes!
And there's then the debate (at least in my head) on what to wear with the collar. Jeans, biker trousers, a suit? That will depend on the occasion and people involved.
Sometimes, though, I think the collar can be a barrier. People will see the minister in a different light. They may not fully show themselves or be appalled to see the minister having a pint in the local! Even out of uniform, a minister, by some, is still expected to be a certain type of person and not necessarily very Christ-like - I'm sure he'd go to the pub. Jesus didn't change clothes to teach the people, according to scripture. Maybe he did, but it was not recorded. I'm sure if he did and there was an important reason for it, it would have been recorded by the gospel writers.
From a very personal point of view, at the moment, I wear a suit jacket when leading worship in my home church. It shows I am being more formal and sets a bit more gravitas (for me, believe me, that is an achievement!). I am doing pulpit supply at the end of October and I will wear a suit on that occasion.
When I start training, I think my attire for the occasions will remain fairly constant. Although I will be a trainee minister, I wouldn't want people getting a false impression I am the minister, as that could lead to all kinds of comedy situations.
But, at what point would I begin to wear a collar? At the right time in training? At the start of probation? When following the call to congregations? When being ordained? Spot thinks probation. He uses the police analogy, where even during training the police wear a uniform. I pointed out there are indicators on their uniform they are in training....so, should trainee ministers have a blue clerical collar!!!
God has called me because of who I am. My clothes are a reflection of that. So long as my clothes do not distract others from His message, I think that's all that really matters.
Generally, I think it's useful for the congregation, especially visitors, to see who the minister is. This is where the dog - sorry, clerical - collar comes in useful. I know, when I am a minister I will wear one for leading worship, certain types of visits where being instantly recognisable is advantageous and funerals.
It's a uniform. I recognise the assistant in Tesco by their uniform. I know if I want to know where to get the item that's been moved for the umpteenth time, I ask the person in the right clothing. I suppose the same goes for ministers!
As for robes...quite frankly, I'd get roasting in them. Generally, I don't feel very cold, unless it's really hot. So, robes would get me too hot under the collar! There are times, I know, where they set even more gravitas - such as when performing (or should that be administering?) the sacraments and remembrance Sunday. Having said that, if I was called to a very cold church, my opinion on robes may change very rapidly!!!
Preaching scarves...well they can be useful. A bit more formal than just the collar, but without the insulation of robes!
And there's then the debate (at least in my head) on what to wear with the collar. Jeans, biker trousers, a suit? That will depend on the occasion and people involved.
Sometimes, though, I think the collar can be a barrier. People will see the minister in a different light. They may not fully show themselves or be appalled to see the minister having a pint in the local! Even out of uniform, a minister, by some, is still expected to be a certain type of person and not necessarily very Christ-like - I'm sure he'd go to the pub. Jesus didn't change clothes to teach the people, according to scripture. Maybe he did, but it was not recorded. I'm sure if he did and there was an important reason for it, it would have been recorded by the gospel writers.
From a very personal point of view, at the moment, I wear a suit jacket when leading worship in my home church. It shows I am being more formal and sets a bit more gravitas (for me, believe me, that is an achievement!). I am doing pulpit supply at the end of October and I will wear a suit on that occasion.
When I start training, I think my attire for the occasions will remain fairly constant. Although I will be a trainee minister, I wouldn't want people getting a false impression I am the minister, as that could lead to all kinds of comedy situations.
But, at what point would I begin to wear a collar? At the right time in training? At the start of probation? When following the call to congregations? When being ordained? Spot thinks probation. He uses the police analogy, where even during training the police wear a uniform. I pointed out there are indicators on their uniform they are in training....so, should trainee ministers have a blue clerical collar!!!
God has called me because of who I am. My clothes are a reflection of that. So long as my clothes do not distract others from His message, I think that's all that really matters.
Wednesday, 28 July 2010
Two Sundays - two services
Two Sunday's in a row I was asked to lead worship at the church linked with my home church, while my ministers were on holiday. This was humbling as they asked me following on from the last time I'd lead worship there back just after Easter. The session had met in the following few days and decided then to ask. Also, at the moment I'm cheap. I won't take pulpit supply money (and I don't even know if I'm entitled anyway) as I'm still working and don't need the money. I'd just give to straight back anyway!
The first Sunday, I don't know what had got into me, but I wasn't quite "right". It was only wee things, but no one could help but notice. When I announced I was skipping the children's address I said "as there's no children here tomorrow", I transposed my figures when announcing one of the hymns and I kept reading through the prayer of confession into intercession so I combined two prayers into one. Must remember to have a prayer before leading worship. I think that's the mistake I made.
I also chose more than 1 unfamiliar hymn. Oops. I did select them based on the theme, but perhaps took that a little far. The congregation did rise to the occasion, though.
A positive, though, was the congregation did seem to be moved by my sermon. A few commented they got something out of it. Someone mentioned about the hymns and my apparent nervousness, but also said the sermon was good and "that's the most important thing". The session clerk commented it was well paced.
On the second Sunday, things did go better. Given I was using the lectionary (I've not got the confidence or knowledge to go off-topic, yet) and Sunday's was the Lord's prayer, I did put prayer at the start of my worship. I think that made all the difference. Probably just as well, given a local minister and his family were on holiday and chose the church I was leading worship. The usual congregation were relieved I was there when they saw the visiting minister. They had planned a "songs of praise" service. Nothing wrong with that now and again. And I'm sure they would have risen to the occasion if I wasn't there.
One thing I did was print my service notes at a smaller font size than normal, so I felt I was reading from them a lot.and not making eye contact with the congregation as much as I usually do. Spot said he hadn't noticed that, but I was a little slower during my sermon; probably at the right pace. Personally, I still felt I could have done with the larger font. It's a comfort blanket, so to speak. Practice makes perfect, though. And I know Spot does give constructive feedback.
Overall the service was well received. I went for all well known hymns. They did, broadly, follow the theme and more than made up for the previous week. Just to ensure I got a positive reaction, the closing hymn was "Guide me o thy Great Jehovah". In my experience, with that as a finally, the person (or people) leading worship can get away with a lot! Besides, it's one of my favourite hymns and, as the person leading worship it's one of the perks!
The first Sunday, I don't know what had got into me, but I wasn't quite "right". It was only wee things, but no one could help but notice. When I announced I was skipping the children's address I said "as there's no children here tomorrow", I transposed my figures when announcing one of the hymns and I kept reading through the prayer of confession into intercession so I combined two prayers into one. Must remember to have a prayer before leading worship. I think that's the mistake I made.
I also chose more than 1 unfamiliar hymn. Oops. I did select them based on the theme, but perhaps took that a little far. The congregation did rise to the occasion, though.
A positive, though, was the congregation did seem to be moved by my sermon. A few commented they got something out of it. Someone mentioned about the hymns and my apparent nervousness, but also said the sermon was good and "that's the most important thing". The session clerk commented it was well paced.
On the second Sunday, things did go better. Given I was using the lectionary (I've not got the confidence or knowledge to go off-topic, yet) and Sunday's was the Lord's prayer, I did put prayer at the start of my worship. I think that made all the difference. Probably just as well, given a local minister and his family were on holiday and chose the church I was leading worship. The usual congregation were relieved I was there when they saw the visiting minister. They had planned a "songs of praise" service. Nothing wrong with that now and again. And I'm sure they would have risen to the occasion if I wasn't there.
One thing I did was print my service notes at a smaller font size than normal, so I felt I was reading from them a lot.and not making eye contact with the congregation as much as I usually do. Spot said he hadn't noticed that, but I was a little slower during my sermon; probably at the right pace. Personally, I still felt I could have done with the larger font. It's a comfort blanket, so to speak. Practice makes perfect, though. And I know Spot does give constructive feedback.
Overall the service was well received. I went for all well known hymns. They did, broadly, follow the theme and more than made up for the previous week. Just to ensure I got a positive reaction, the closing hymn was "Guide me o thy Great Jehovah". In my experience, with that as a finally, the person (or people) leading worship can get away with a lot! Besides, it's one of my favourite hymns and, as the person leading worship it's one of the perks!
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