My co-ordinated field assessment is nearly finished - my last Sunday is 29th March, with my local review taking place on 1st April (yes, April fools day!).In many respects, I feel I've covered a lot during a very short period of time. The CFA only officially started in mid-November. Also, between my supervisor's time off sick and my issues following the accident, I've not really done too much since January. At least that's sort of how it feels.
On Monday, I met with my supervisor for the last time before my local review. We discussed how I felt about preaching on Sunday and how I feel about my call. Preaching seemed okay and I received some very kind comments. As for my call, I very much feel called to the ministry of word and sacrament, though sometimes I doubt I have the ability to fulfil that call, yet I know God calls me despite of myself.
My supervisor asked what I thought was an interesting question. "What would you like the outcome of the local review to be?". Mmh - was this a trick question? I answered honestly - I would like to be recommended for selection conference, but I will wait and see the decision of the local reviewers.
So, is this the end of the beginning of my journey to ministry? I will know in 3 weeks time.
Isn't it amazing how quickly the time goes in? It sounds as though you're pretty clear in your own mind that you're on the correct path and that counts for a lot. Being able to express that can be difficult at times but it's what you need to hold on to.
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Thanks for the support John. Yes, it can be difficult to express the call - but I know I'm now going in the right direction. I just need to convince others too.
ReplyDeleteouch, tough question
ReplyDeleteNike's slogan is, "just do it!" You'll do fine:)
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